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but I like being numb


 

I have dissociated and decayed away

Where have I been?

I have discarded my filthy skin.

Running on low empty

I have

Lost most of everything

Ever valuable

Least used

What I have read I forgot.

 

Months ago I could still feel

Covering up my eyes

With film reels.

 

I can’t even do that.

 

Let my roots dangle down

To open sores

No more stereotypes

I will implore no further.

 

When I sit down to the.

Neon lights burn my arteries

In entrails

In entrails

it shuts down.

 

A savage creation

No more

No more

 

Words are useless

I have found traps in my own mind

To bind me in my troubles

I have opened my mouth for the last time.

 

Lets see

Lets see

I cant eat

There are no more ways out

I will say the same thing over and over in 5,000 variations

Because it is all I can say

Until I get better.

 

When I am a robot

I am fed prescription

S

I am tired of this

I am too tired to realize I let my life slip away

I awaken frail and puffy

I am dark clouds; I get dizzy upon standing

 

I have been gone so long

I am weeping for the lost words

I am weeping at lost repetition

It means nothing

Because my thoughts are one track

They do not wander

Anymore

They stay in place

An empty place

No joy no wonder.

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